What curtain are you hiding behind?

When your devotion becomes too commercialized,

When your passion seems to have suddenly gone amiss,

When you're starting to run away from what you loved,

Pause and reflect.

Is the true cause of your boredom out there?

Or Is it concealed within the layers of your heart?

No, the words you write don't matter.

Even what you say doesn't change anything.

What matters is whether you still feel what you felt.

If you're really living for you,

It won't matter what anyone else thinks or might think.

Live with you, for you- you're amazing!

The slightest change can shake your foundation;

But even a rocking ship does come to a halt.

When you're embarrassed of yourself,

When being you feels like social suicide,

When trying desperately to erase your actions,

When nothing anyone says helps;

THINK.

I like sitting by myself at night to just reflect.

The beauty of the night, for me, being that I'm alone;

Alone with my thoughts, feelings and God.

I'm as unadulterated and pure as I can be.

Come out and play in the sun

It is so easy to hide behind a pair of glasses, isn't it?

I know what I've always equated that look of mine with.

It helped me look geeky and boring.

I reached out to them everytime I felt unpretty.

The ugliness I felt was not so much about the outside.

It was related to the embarrassment I felt within.

I was embarrassed about every little thing I did.

Things I had said light-years earlier to someone else,

My excessive chatter, Their watchful silence-

It all reverberated in my ears, exploding my head.

I just wanted to melt into the background, literally.

Embarrassed of your existence??

Each day, you do several things.

Some of it is fabulous, some is good and some not.

Nobody really remembers any of it.

Only YOU keep the memory of it burning in your heart.

If it ups your self-esteem, great!

But if it embarrasses you, depresses you or drives you to the brink of suicide; something is amiss, don't you think??